my head temperature's beginning tO rise beyond boiling point!... i,.sOooo wanna kiLL bitches and bury deM aLivE!..
..bEen fUcked up aBout the bitchEs hu wanted tO jOin d crips.. i min,..i hatE dEm.. mgdaLa ba nman ug troPa sa Hood.. bitcHes!.. i reaLLy want tO kiLL dem.. init n keO akOng DugO sa iLa... creatureS.. mg vandaL pa jud ug iLahang gruPo.. im not against blacksheep or anything,.but i just want dem to respect our place... we've been stayng der.. trying to kill our lungs and getting high.. my ryt din kmi dun!... and to think,. dey haven't been accepted being a crip!... shit motherfuckerS!.. learn to respect if u want to be respected too!....
swerte keo cla,..im wasting my tym writing an entry for dem...
mghulat lng kog bikil as of now.. tutaL dey cant evEn look me in the eye... tOo scareD, i think?...
-jUst onE thing bitches,.. fLirt with any guy sa hood but not wid my guy.. iL reaLLy kick ur fuckin aSs.. he's mine, sO backoff!.. but if ur really into catfighting, i myt give an exception...
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
11:53 AM
i hear the words are spoken I think my mind is broken I keep on steady smokin Hopefully I die from chokin Know what I was just thinking,.. Maybe if I keep drinkin The voice will quit and I can escape from this demon deakin My lifes a living hell Only the voice can tell Oh please oh christ compel bLEed me from this evil spell My body won't stop shakin These voices keep on makin Me do things to people, this must be just the work of satan
They want my mind an soul this shit is way out of control I haven't been to sleep in weeks, i'm sweating but my body's cold I'm shaking like a leaf, terrified to go to sleep Puking from the medication vitals signs is looking weak I see him in the mirror, he told me come inside He lives inside my head so there's nowhere to hide They want my soul to die so they can come alive Possess my body, so everybody can realize
....I guess I'm cursed to live with this headache forever....
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
2:15 PM
this is emO shit! crap!
i lovE u..and i dOnt reaLLy carE if u dOnt lovE me back.. itS enuf fOr me tO shOut 2 d whOle wodE wOrLd HOw im heaD ovEr heELs ovEr u!... u give me a sense of living dis sEnseLess wOrLd.. im not teLling u tO love mE tOo.. im haPi loving u in my oWN little way..
*sigh
wat have u made me into?... u madE me insane.. totally crazy and now i dont know how to stop dis insanity im feeling... shit!..
ur sO perfect in my eyes..and i hate it!
hahai... loving u really is lyk breathing..how can i ever stop?..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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Friday, January 05, 2007
12:31 AM
hmm.. nO earLy cLass fOr mE tOday.. 11 pa akOng kLAse.. gOt dEbarrEd in my cHem cLAss datS d reaSon y... kaPoi man gUd cGEg cHem bah!.. i nOw fiND it bOring.. i aLso gOt deBarreD in my engLish cLass.. wat a gOooOood sTudent i am.. i dOnt waNt my EngLish cLAss.. d teAchER sUcks aND my kLASmeyts arE oL.. bsta..DOnt wAna expLain diS skUL craP!...
aniwEi.. wEnt tO MTS Last nyt.. wE weRe sUppOsEd tO be at bEbs dat tym, as waT wE werE dOing beFore bUT nOw everything sEems tO be sOOooo cOmplicateD.. daMi kASing sELOsO sa MundO bah!.. can't deY sTOp bEing sElfish?...and bEbs is noW undEr surveiLLAnce becAUse of a fUckin gOssip!.. can't dEy mind dEyr Own bUsinEss!! LiarS have a sPeciaL placE in hELL!.. weLL,.sEe u in heLL bitchES! ---> baCK tO d MTS thing... just chiLLEd deYr wid geLAi, isH, maqi and kuya.. dUn sa park2 thingy.. wE weRe aLso dRinking EMpe pLAced in a c2 COntainer..nO aLcoholic breverageS aLLOwed DUn eh,.. mgA GANGSTERS jud!.. a bit later, geLai anD ish wEnt hOme.. which LEft uS 3 tO finish d drink... jUst tOkd,tOkd and tOkd... sUddEnLY, maqi bEcaMe emOtiOnaL... he TOLd me d thingS hE waS geTting jeaLous aBOut.. aNd wAt d HeCk He wUD dO iF hE FiNDs HOw im jUst PLayin.. MybE he'LL gEt hurt daw aNd stuff and sTuff.. OooooohHHHh... creEEpy!. my bOi dOeSn't lyk tO tOk sTuff Lyk dat.. sOmetimeS Lng.. its gOod fOr him tO be mushy sOmetimeS..hehehe... i waS reaLLy sHOckeD aBOut d tOpic we had... at least, nOW i knOw wat hE riLy feELs.. aBOut mE and ABout us...
hahai.. and now.. im SOooo.. lyk intO him... dUnnO y.. gOt nO reAsons.. cant expLain.. loving him is lyk breathing,..i cant stOp! shit!..
a lonely soul
with a shattered heart
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- Em -
em_cute13[a]yahoo.com
19.BSbio DDC student
single but unavailable
addict pretending to be a scholar
gangsta princess
party goer
car lover
ciara worshipper
billiard freak
full time dreamer
alcoholic.smoker